Pink Thunder: Happiness

"Your questions have no answer, being made to still God's Voice, which asks of everyone one question only:

'Are you ready yet to help Me save the world?'

Ask this instead of what the ego is and you will see a sudden brightness cover up the world the ego made. No miracle is now withheld from anyone.
[...]
The miracle forgives; the ego damns."

-- From A Course on Miracles: the Manual for Teachers

Lately I've had to make some tough decisions that involved some personal sacrifice for me. Not perhaps on the material level, but certainly on the emotional level. I have had to have some difficult conversations, in some cases, conversations I avoided for months or even years. One thing I learned from being educated by Quakers is the concept of being led. This means that you listen deeply to the small still voice within and follow your instincts even when you are not sure exactly how something is going to turn out. Even when you are really very afraid of how something is going to turn out. You do it anyway because something inside you is telling you that it's the right thing to do. All signs point in that direction, terrifying and uncertain as it may be to you. And usually it's not half as horrible as you think it's going to be.

Anyway, when I look at the results of those decisions, usually I see happy people. Happy friends, happier family, happy couples, happier families. That's the way things are supposed to be, right? I'm shedding all the secrets I used to keep (from myself and others) and setting myself free. And when you set yourself free, it can inspire others to think of freedom too. Especially the freedom to love.

It's funny, I really am beginning to think that one part of happiness is the secure feeling of knowing you are in the right place at the right time with the right people doing the right thing. When that all happens and it happens in the service of the Good -- is there a more sublime feeling?

I'm trying these days to be more of service in my work, in my life and in my passions. It's a challenge. I also feel called to volunteer again. I used to do this a lot. I've always liked working with kids, especially kids who are having a tough go of it, so I think I'll find out an opportunity to work again with homeless children or children with HIV/AIDS or sick kids or maybe just kids who need a little after-school tutoring. For all of the Bay Area's wealth, there's still plenty of kids and families in need here. I might not be able to really dig in until after the election but until then, I'm just going to put the intention out there and see where I'm led. That part of me is not something a lot of people know about -- that work -- but that's ok. The real reward from service is not something anyone can ever say or give to you. It's something you feel inside you.

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